I only lasted at Nichole's for 3 and 1/2 hours. I had some weird major panic attack. I have no clue why. I had this overwhelming urge to cry and I couldn't feel comfortable crying so I tried not to and then my heart wouldn't stop beating wildly and really hard. It started around 4, then it started to skip beats and I just started feeling dizzy. I had to get out of there and I don't understand it. Nichole is one of the sweetest and people I totally adore her. I feel really bad too. She totally understood, but still.
Now I just feel utterly sick, what the hell is wrong with me?